A project for the good of my Lord

So I, As James Paine, Have started a new project, Not some half hearted attempt at fame-dom, no, this time it is for nothing other than the fun of Honoring the Lord.

I was sitting in my youth group listening to a wise man tell me of how people should be using their gifts from God to Honor God, but i was dumbfounded, I couldn’t figure out what my gift was, let alone use it for the good of God. Well after a few weeks of listening to this man tell us all of gifts and of me praying, I began to realize a few of mine.  And so as I sat in youth group once again, the topic arose of using our gifts to Honor the Lord. I had been kinda nodding in and out of this topic as I was probably tired and bored, but a few words popped through as I was gazing down upon a magazine I had brought with, “use your gifts for the Good of the Lord, To Honor Him”, And I knew what I had to do. I couldn’t take the normal everyday approach to this, I couldn’t just say “Hi” and be nice to those I normally wasn’t, no, I needed to do some extraordinary, I needed to use a gift God Gave me for the Good Of Him. And Then An Idea popped into my head, and I felt that this was put there by the Holy Spirit. After my youth pastor finished talking I went straight over to him and explained to him I felt I had just had a Calling. He was all for it and had me explain it to the whole group. God Has given me the gift of Film making and video Editing, and up until this moment of revelation, I hadn’t quite used it for the Glory of God, Yeah sure I had made a video for the church before, but it was more of a memento than a out-reaching Video for the Lord. So I created a Partial Plan with my Youth Pastor afterwards and Went home and started work On my Plan on how to do this right away. I feel that I have been called to do some work for the Lord, by Using an Unconventional mean to extend Christianity to Others. I can’t Go into detail about the project as it needs to be kept under-wraps until I get some stuff ready and done. But I can say that the project does aim at a crowd that generally has warped views of what Christianity Really is.

It Has been One week since I took a hold of this idea and turned it into a reality, And I have made a lot of progress, But there is still plenty of work ahead of me. But it feels good to know that God will be with me every step of the way.

Mission: Containment.

Lately, I seem to myself, to be stuck into a spiral of defeat. This spiral Contains losing friends, drama, hate, lies, rumors, and most of all, personal Defeat. Most of this stuff has been handled but this whole personal defeat ordeal has been quite the challenge. It isn’t caused by anyone other than myself. I have been seeking inspiration a lot lately, it it just seems to be eluding me to the point where I want to give up. It isn’t like i haven’t been in this situation before, but Now it just seems all the more close to home. About a month ago i was an inspired genius, now I seem to be dwindling back into the need for inspiration once again. I think one major thing was, I had so many projects going at once and I used all my resources on way too much stuff at one time, it got to the point where I was working on two or three scripts at a time, while doing photo manipulation work, all the while casting, one movie while trying to film and edit another. I know multi-tasking is a big thing these days, but it was just a huge deal where it sucked all my talent out of me and now I am just stuck with a slightly glowing corpse. There is still ideas in me, I just don’t have the energy to pull them out right now, and it is frustrating, it is almost like my creativity went into sleep mode, and it just is driving me crazy.  I kind of feel like a apocalyptic cityscape, like, there is endless opportunities for it if you look at it in the right light, Say you needed a place to hide out or fortify your position in a gun fight, it would be perfect, but i feel like people and a lot of myself are just seeing me in a different light, They don’t see what it could do, or wants to do, they just see the outward appearance, a twisted useless city.